How I Spent my Christmas vacation
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Christmas is supposed to be a wonderful time full of love and family, but for me it's just full of sadness. My parents are no longer here, and it makes the holidays feel empty. My siblings are busy with their own families, making new memories, and I understand that, yet it still hurts to be left out. The memories of past Christmases when we were all together, waking up early for presents and having a big meal, now just make me feel the loss more. Sitting alone in this quiet house, the loneliness is almost too much to bear. I try to seem okay on the outside, but inside my heart is broken. I know that Christmas will never be the same without my parents, and I have to live with that every year.
This Christmas, I wanted to do something different. So I called my friends and we spent the day doing fireworks and going out. The fireworks were amazing, lighting up the sky in different colors. It was a moment of pure joy and it lifted up my spirits. We walked around town looking at the Christmas lights and decorations, chatting and laughing. It was nice to be with friends and feel that I belonged somewhere. I forgot my sadness for a while, and just enjoyed the moment.
But when I returned to my empty house, reality hit me again. The memories of the day with my friends were a bittersweet comfort, but they could not replace the love and warmth of my parents. I know I will always carry the pain of their loss, especially during the holidays. Though, I will always be searching to create some other memories and see some good in the future though it won't be the same as before.
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